Take Care

"Know you’ve been hurt by someone else
I can tell by the way you carry yourself
If you let me, here’s what I’ll do
I’ll take care of you
I’ve loved and I’ve lost"


"You hate the fact that you bought the dream
And they sold you one"


These lyrics speak the truth. We have all bought a dream sold by an ex or present mate. Trying to allow yourself to move forward from it is the true challenge. Truly allowing your heart to be taken care of by someone else. 

Knowledge (3/2004)

When I first gained knowledge
Damn in was so sweet
It arose out of no where
Blinded me in my sleep
I've had it for so long
But it never came to me
Who would've ever thought
How knowledge brought reality

Knowledge was so deep, It was so thought provoking
I gained all its words even when it was spoken
Knowledge fave me power, Knowledge gave strength
When I was with knowledge, It pushed me to my lengths
With knowledge I began to laugh
With knowledge I began to cry
When I began to lose my knowledge, I began to question why
I fell for knowledge because it taught me the game
I fell for true knowledge and not for the fame
With knowledge i was able to find the true me
I guess its really true, knowledge is the key
When it comes to knowledge, there is so much I gain
I know if I ever lost knowledge I'd really feel the pain
Before knowledge I had to suffer
Before it I had to hurt
But now after knowledge, I see my true worth
Knowledge never disrespected me
Knowledge never did me wrong
I sometimes only wish realizing this didn't take so long
With knowledge I'm challenged
With knowledge I learn
And knowledge always tries its best to give all its concerns
As I sought out for knowledge
Knowledge sought out for me
And me and my knowledge.... Are truly meant to be

The sweetest thing I've ever known.... Knowledge don't get me wrong...

Quote

"When fear knocks on your door, answer with faith!"- Joyce Meyers

In the Beginning...

Long awaited it finally became time that I start my blog. Writing again. How I have divorced one of my first loves only to return. BREATHLESS because I have no breathes to speak in the extent I am writing.  Mz_Renegade because I've "never been afraid to say whats on my mind at any given time of day". My constant attempts to remain positive and daily struggles trying to remain faithful to God. 


Why I fell out of love with writing or better yet why did i stop writing??....


 Someone recently asked me that question and it then became the most difficult question to answer. I felt like Monica in Love & Basketball when Q asked her why did she stop playing ball...
I allowed the love that consumed 5 years of my life consume some of the more precious loves I had. Never did he make an attempt to know who/what i loved before, he only cared about my love for him. 
I just learned only a selfless man could want to know the other loves in a woman's life and not only that but want to know why the woman loves/loved those things.
This has now become my new inspiration. The final push i needed to revert back to my roots and former love. 


This time I'm on a different journey where my writing is developing, my thoughts are maturing, my tears are minimal, my faith is increasing, my joy is everlasting and I cannot allow myself to fall out of love again. My keyboard replacing the pen and pad but flowing smoothly like the ink to let these words that I have no breathe to speak be imprinted forever. 


*~Live, Laugh & Love~*